靜心技巧產生作用時的跡象

譯自奧修書“The Book of Secrets”第2章第3個問題
1972年10月2日午後於孟買Woodlands的演說


有哪些確切的跡象讓人知道他正在練習的某個特定技巧將通往那最終的?


跡象是存在的。第一,你開始在你裡面感覺到一個不同的個體。你不再一樣了。如果這技巧適合你,你立刻就是一個不同的人。如果你是一位結了婚的丈夫,你就不再是同一位丈夫。如果你是位商店老闆,你就永遠不再是同一位商店老闆。無論你是什麼,如果這技巧適合你,你會變成另一個人;那就是第一個跡象。所以如果你開始對你自己感到奇怪、陌生,要知道這是某種事情正發生在你身上。假如你仍然跟原來一樣,感覺不到任何奇怪的地方,那就是什麼都沒有發生。這是某個技巧是否與你相合的第一個跡象。如果它是合的,立刻你就會被傳導,被轉變成另一個人。突然間這樣的事情就會發生:你是以全然不同的方式看著這個世界。雙眼還是相同的,然而在它們後面去看的人已經不同了。

第二,所有那些製造出緊張,衝突的事情都開始掉落。並不是你練習那個方法很多年,然後你的種種衝突,焦慮,緊張才會落下──不!如果這方法適合你,它們馬上就開始掉下來。你能感受到一種活力來到你身上;你被卸下了重擔。你會開始感覺到,如果這技巧適合你,地心引力已經反轉過來。此時地球不再將你往下拖。反之,是天空正在將你拉上去。當飛機在起飛時你有什麼感受呢?一切都被翻攪起來。然後突然間一個抽動,地心引力就失去意義了。此時地球不再拖住你,你正在遠離地心引力而去。


如果一個靜心技巧與你是合的,那同樣的抽動將會發生。突然間你就起飛了。突然間你覺得這地球已變得無關緊要;地心引力不存在了。它沒有將你往下拖,你是被往上拉。在宗教的詞彙裡,這被稱為“恩典”。有兩種力量──地心引力(gravity)和恩典(grace)。恩典的意思是你會被向上拉去;地心引力則是你會向下拖走。

那就是為什麼在靜心之中很多人會突然覺得他們沒有了重量。那就是為什麼許多人會感覺到一種內在的浮起。有太多人在技巧對了的時候向我這樣報告過:「真是奇怪!我們閉上了眼睛,然後就覺得自己離地升起了一些──1呎,2呎,甚至離地4呎。然而當我們睜開眼睛時,我們就只是在地面;當我們閉起眼睛時,我們就浮起來了。所以這是怎麼回事?當我們睜開眼睛時我們就只是在地上而已!我們從未浮上來。”

身體還留在地面,然而你浮上來了。這樣的浮起事實上是來自上方的一種牽引。如果這技巧是對的,你就會被拉起來,因為技巧的作用就是要將那向上的牽引提供給你。這就是技巧的意義:使那可將你往上拉的力量能在你身上運作。所以如果它是適合的,你自己會知道──你會變得沒有重量。

第三,現在無論你做什麼,不管那是什麼,不管多小的事情,都不再一樣了。你走路的方式會不一樣,你坐著的方式會不一樣,你吃東西的方式會不一樣。一切都不同了。你會在每一個地方感覺到這樣的差異。有時這一切都不再相同的奇特經驗會產生出恐懼。它會讓人想要回頭照原本的樣子,因為人們是如此調適於那舊有的。這是個依循舊習的世界,即便很無聊,但在這之中你是很熟練的。

如今無論你到哪裡都會覺得有個隔閡。你會覺得你的熟練失去了。你會覺得你的效能降低了。你會覺得無論在什麼地方你都是個局外人。這個階段必須度過它。然後你會再次接上。你改變了,但這世界沒有,因此你會格格不入。所以記得第三件事:當這技巧合於你時,你將無法合於這世界。你會變得無法與它接合。每個地方都有東西鬆掉,某個栓子不見了。無論到哪裡你都覺得像在地震一樣。然而一切都還是原本的樣子;只有你,是你自己,已經不同了。然而在一個不同的層面上,在一個更高的層面上,你會再次協調起來。

這種騷動不安就像是孩子在發育並開始性成熟時的感受。到了14或15歲的年紀每個男孩都會覺得自己變得很奇怪。一個新的力量進來了──性。之前它不在那裡,或者它在,然而是隱藏的。現在他是第一次讓一個全新類型的力量在他身上發揮作用。那就是為什麼男孩們都會很彆扭:女孩們,男孩們,當他們在性上面變得成熟時,他們會非常彆扭。他們無處可去。他們不再是小孩卻也還不是大人,所以他們夾在中間,跟哪裡都不合。如果跟小孩子玩他們會覺得難為情──他們已是大人了。如果開始跟大人做朋友他們也會覺得尷尬──他們還是孩子而已。他們跟任何人都合不起來。

當一個技巧適合你時也會發生同樣的現象。一個比性更大的全新能量來源開始可供你使用。你再次處在一種過渡期。如今你無法合於這世俗之人的世界。你已不是個孩子,然而你也還不能合於那聖人的世界;夾在兩者之間會讓人覺得難以自處。

如果一個技巧適合你,這三件事情就會出現。你可能沒預料到我要說的事情會是這些。你可能期待我會說你將變得更寧靜,更安定,而我所說的卻正好相反:你將變得更騷動不安。當技巧對了時你會變得更混亂,而不是更寧靜。寧靜要晚點才會到來。而且如果出現的是寧靜而不是混亂,要清楚知道這並不是技巧的作用;這只是調整到舊有的模式而已。

那就是為什麼更多的人會去禱告而非靜心,因為禱告能給你慰藉。它適應你,配合你,順應著你的世界。禱告跟現今的心理醫師所做的實質上是同樣的事情。如果你精神失常了,他們會讓你不那麼失常,調整到合乎模式,社會,家庭。於是經過1年,2年或3年的時間去找心理醫師後,你不會變得更好,但你會更能適應。禱告就是在做同樣的事情,牧師就是在做同樣的事情──他們使你更能調整自己。

你的孩子死了,你內心無法平復,於是你去找牧師。他說「不必如此心亂。只有受到神更多寵愛的孩子才會這麼早死去。祂召喚了他們。」於是你感到滿足。你的孩子已“蒙主寵召”了。神愛他更多一些。或者牧師會說些別的:「不用擔心,靈魂永遠不死。你的孩子正在天堂之中。」

就在幾天前有個女人來到這裡。她的先生上個月剛過世。她平靜不下來。她來找我並且說「只要向我保證他已投胎到一個好地方,那麼一切就沒事了。只要跟我確定他沒有去到地獄或者沒有變成動物,他是在天堂裡,也許已經成為某種神或是之類的。如果你能就是跟我如此保證,那麼一切都很好。那麼我就承受得了;否則我會一直痛苦下去。」

若是牧師就會說「好的!妳的先生已在第七層天上重生為神,他非常快樂。而且他正等待著妳。」

這些牧師,他們使你調整到合乎那個模式‧‧‧於是你就覺得好多了。

靜心是種科學。它不會幫助你去調整,它會幫助你去蛻變。那就是為什麼我說是這三點會作為跡象出現。寧靜將會到來,但不是作為一種調整。寧靜將是以一種內在的綻放而來。這時候的寧靜不是對社會,家庭,世界,以及你的生意的一種調適──不!這時候的寧靜將是一種與宇宙真正的和諧。

於是在你與整體之間會綻放出很深的和諧,於是寧靜就會出現──然而是之後才會出現。首先你會被攪成一團,首先你會變得瘋狂──因為你本來就是瘋狂的,只是還沒發覺而已。

如果技巧是對的,它將使你覺知到你原本的一切。你的失序,你的頭腦,你的瘋狂,每一件事都將曝光。你只是一團黑暗與混亂。當技巧對了時,那就好像突然間光出現了,於是整團混亂都變得清楚起來。你將首度面對那個你原本的自己。你會想要關上燈再一次睡著──那太可怕了。師父就是在這個點上能提供幫助。他會說,「不用害怕。這只是一開始。不要逃離它。」

首先這個光會顯示出你所是的,然後如果你能一直一直繼續下去,它會轉變你,使你朝向你能夠成為的。

今天就到這裡。



Excerpt from OSHO’s book“The Book of Secrets”, Chapter2 Question3
2 October 1972 pm in Woodlands, Bombay

WHAT ARE THE EXACT INDICATIONS TO KNOW THAT THE PARTICULAR TECHNIQUE ONE IS PRACTISING WILL LEAD TO THE ULTIMATE?

There are indications. One, you begin to feel a different identity within you. You are no more the same. If the technique fits you, immediately you are a different person. If you are a husband, you are no more the same husband. If you are a shopkeeper, you are never again the same shopkeeper. Whatsoever you are, if the technique fits you, you are a different person; that is the first indication. So if you begin to feel strange about yourself, know that something is happening to you. If you remain the same and do not feel any strangeness, nothing is happening. This is the first indication of whether a technique fits you. If it fits, immediately you are transported, transformed into a different person. Suddenly this happens: you look at the world in a different way. The eyes are the same, but the looker behind them is different.

Secondly, all that creates tensions, conflicts, starts dropping. It is not that when you have practiced the method for years, then your conflicts, anxieties, tensions will drop—no! If the method fits you, immediately they start dropping. You can feel an aliveness coming to you; you are being unburdened. You will begin to feel, if the technique fits you, that gravity has become reversed. Now the earth is not pulling you down. Rather, the sky is pulling you up. How do you feel when an airplane takes off? Everything is disturbed. Suddenly there is a jerk, and gravity becomes meaningless. Now the earth is not pulling you, you are going away from gravity.

The same jerk happens if a meditative technique fits you. Suddenly you take off. Suddenly you feel the earth has become meaningless; there is no gravity. It is not pulling you down, you are being pulled up. In religious terminology, this is called “grace”. There are two forces—gravity and grace. Grace means you are being pulled upwards; gravity means you are being pulled downwards.

That is why in meditation many people suddenly feel they have no weight. That is why many people feel an inner levitation. So many have reported this to me when the technique fits them: “This is strange! We close our eyes and we feel that we are a little bit above the earth—one foot, two feet, even four feet above the earth. When we open our eyes we are just on the ground; when we close our eyes we have levitated. So what is this? When we open our eyes we are just on the ground! We never levitated.”

The body remains on the ground, but you levitate. This levitation is really a pull from the above. If the technique fits you have been pulled, because the working of the technique is to make available for you the upward pull. This is what the technique means: to make you available for the force which can pull you up. So if it fits, you know—you have become weightless.

Thirdly, whatsoever you will now do, whatsoever, howsoever trivial, will be different. You will walk in a different way, you will sit in a different way, you will eat in a different way. Everything will be different. This difference you will feel everywhere. Sometimes this strange experience of being different creates fear. One wants again to go back and be the same, because one was so attuned with the old. It was a routine world, even boring, but you were efficient in it.

Now everywhere you will feel a gap. You will feel that your efficiency is lost. You will feel that your utility is reduced. You will feel that everywhere you are an outsider. One has to pass through this period. You will become attuned again. You have changed, not the world, so you will not fit. So remember the third thing: When the technique fits you, you will not fit into the world. You will become unfit. Everywhere something is loose, some bolt is missing. Everywhere you will feel that there has been an earthquake. And everything has remained the same; only you, you, have become different. But you will be attuned again on a different plane, on a higher plane.

The disturbance is felt just like when a child grows and becomes sexually mature. At the age of fourteen or fifteen every boy feels that he has become strange. A new force has entered—sex. It was not there before, or it was, but it was hidden. Now for the first time he has become available for a new kind of force. That is why boys are very awkward; girls, boys, when they become sexually mature, they are very awkward. They are nowhere. They are no longer children and they are not yet men, so they are in between, fitting nowhere. If they play with small children they feel awkward—they have become men. If they start making friendships with men they feel awkward—they are still children. They fit with no one.

The same phenomenon happens when a technique fits you. A new energy source becomes available that is greater than sex. You are again in a transitory period. Now you cannot fit in this world of worldly men. You are not a child, and you cannot yet fit in the world of saints; and in between one feels awkward.

If a technique fits you these three things will come up. You may not have expected that I would say these things. You may have expected that I would say you will become more silent, more quiet, and I am saying quite the contrary: you will become more disturbed. When the technique fits you will become more disturbed, not more silent. Silence will come later on. And if silence comes and not disturbance, know well that this is not a technique; this is just getting adjusted to the old pattern.

That is why more people go for a prayer than for meditation because prayer gives you a consolation. It fits you, adjusts to you, to your world. Prayer was doing virtually the same thing that psychoanalysts are now doing. If you are disturbed they will make you less disturbed, adjusted to the pattern, to the society, to the family. So by going to a psychoanalyst for one, two or three years you will not get better, but you will be more adjusted. Prayer does the same thing, and priests do the same thing—they make you more adjusted.

Your child has died and you are disturbed, and you go to a priest. He says, “Do not be disturbed. Only those children die early whom God loves more. He calls them up.” You feel satisfied. Your child has been “called up.” God loves him more. Or the priest says something else: “Do not be worried, the soul never dies. Your child is in heaven.”

One woman was here just a few days before. Her husband had died just during the past month. She was disturbed. She came to me and she said, “Only assure me that he is reborn in a good place and then everything will be okay. Just give me a certainty that he has not gone to hell or he has not become an animal, that he is in heaven or he has become a god or some such thing. If you can just assure me of this, then everything is okay. Then I can bear it; otherwise I am miserable.”

The priest would say, “Okay! Your husband is born as a god in the seventh heaven, and he is very happy. And he is waiting for you.”

These prayers, they make you adjusted to the pattern… you feel better.

Meditation is a science. It is not going to help you in adjustment, it is going to help you in transformation. That is why I say these three signs will be there as indications. Silence will come, but not as an adjustment. Silence will come as an inner flowering. Then silence will not be an adjustment with the society, with the family, the world, the business—no! Then silence will be a real harmony with the universe.

Then a deep harmony flowers between you and the totality, then there is silence—but that will come later. First you will get disturbed, first you will become mad—because you are mad, only unaware.

If a technique fits, it will make you aware of everything that you are. Your anarchy, your mind, your madness, everything will come to light. You are just a dark mess. When a technique fits, it is as if suddenly there is light and the whole mess becomes apparent. For the first time you will encounter yourself as you are. You would like to put the light off and go to sleep again—it is fearful. This is the point where the master becomes helpful. He says, “Do not be afraid. This is just the beginning. And do not escape from it.”

At first this light shows you what you are, and if you can go on and on, it transforms you toward what you can be.

Enough for today.






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